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As a plus size woman its difficult to explain to others what you feel inside and how the world can sometimes be a cruel place when you stand out in a crowd.

As a plus sized person myself I can testify that its not easy at all to step out with a hopeful heart and try to live and simply be a human being and have spectators stare at you or outright laugh and say hurtful and painful comments.

There are many times that I have felt to retreat and remain indoors to avoid the shame and pain that I often feel when I go out there and face ridicule and exclusion.

There was a time when I built my whole life in a way that I stayed at home at that time when I was weighing close to 400 pounds and I could barely walk and felt that I did not belong.

I went through many abusive and destructive relationships which caused me to come really close to death.

It took me having a serious back surgery and being diagnosed with Diabetes to realize that my life was slipping away because it mattered so much what others thought and how desperately I wanted to be loved.

I decided to fight and went to the gym and started to eat better and removed certain hazardous foods from my life.

Not because I wanted to fit in but because I wanted to love myself more than what I did.

With a lot of prayers I was able to stand on my feet and walk and merge back into main stream society even being able to commute to and from work.

While the road is still rough I am now struggling sometimes because I can't handle the exclusion sometimes I feel so badly that I want to relapse but then I remember how far I have come.

You see to all the women out there who feel as if they have no place because of their body image its wrong to allow people to put you in such a place.

Every one has a purpose everyone a contribution and no one deserves to feel less than what they are no matter their outter image.

There is a "Queen" inside every woman and not every one was designed to be the same or this world would be extremely boring.

When you walk with your head held high loving who you are starting from the inside its hard for anyone to get inside and take that love away from yourself.

The world is a large place and it would be like trying to stop multiple holes in a damn if you try to combat the world and some of the cold hearted individuals that we share space with it would be a mission impossible.

Though we can increase awareness on how to perpetuate self worth and embracing inner beauty and learning how to love yourself.

It takes time but it is not impossible to achieve.

There are definitely tools in which one can use and the first is to pray for strength, maintain a smile, and remind yourself of your worth that you are just as much as worthy as the other person.

Dwelling and focusing on the negativity out there will only further drive you to insecure feelings and depression.

I can't say each day is full of sunshine but there is shelter from the rain metaphorically speaking.

The world is big enough even for the plus sized women out there and nothing is wrong with who you are and what you look like and if one wants to make change make change because you want to and not to be a part of society's rule of what one "SHOULD" look like.

~Every Man Has The Right To Decide His Own Destiny fr: Bob Marley~

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Dj Bubbles Birthday Celebration & Roots 96.1 FM Fundraiser

On April 21, 2018 Beautiful Bold Women's Outreach Performance INC. Will be hosting a birthday celebration in honor of Dj Bubbles and also a fund raiser for Jamaica's Community Radio Station Roots 96.1 FM.

Roots 96.1 FM has opened its doors to many Canadian reggae artist who are seeking international exposure in Jamaica. 

Roots 96.1 FM has featured artists such as Juno Award winning Exco Levi, world known hip hop and rap Canadian artist Michy Mee, Chelsea Stewart and many more.

The station is owned by The Mustard Seed Communities based in the United States which focuses on the unique challenges faced by community residents in the music industry both locally in Jamaica and internationally as well.

Roots 96.1 FM operates strictly on donations made to the Mustard Seed.

Beautiful Bold Women's Outreach Performance INC. In collaboration with Jamrock Records and other community based entities are working together to present this event and mainly to donate the proceeds from the event to Roots 96.1 FM in Jamaica to help with the costs of purchasing the equipment to continue to manage the technical functions of the station so that they can continue to be an open door free of charge to artists who need exposure especially our Canadian reggae artists who have benefited from the generosity of Roots 96.1 FM.

The station is all about community and inclusion not only on the island of Jamaica how ever Roots 96.1 FM extends its dedication to being a pillar that perpetuates inclusion in the community by being a platform to artists to be heard and gain further exposure.

Beautiful Bold Women's Outreach Performance INC. Along with Jamrock Records has created this event to raise funds for Roots 96.1 FM to continue to be in operation so that artists both now and in the future has the peace of mind knowing that there is a radio station that will use their platform on the radio to be a help to both upcoming, and established artist in the reggae industry.

On April 21, 2018 at the Sankofa Bar & Restaurant is where the fund raising event will take place the line up includes the reggae dance hall legend Yami Bolo who will be headlining the event, Juno Award winning Korexion, Empress Divine one of Toronto's diva's, J-Rich from Toronto, Ras Bingi, Toronto's God Father of reggae Jimmy Reid, and, Uncle Johnny.

The hosts for the night will be Singing P of Nighthawk International Sound and also from CKUT 90.3 FM in Montreal, and Toronto's hits breaking Dj Wizology from Vibe 105 FM.

From Roots 96.1 FM will be Bailey Bwoy coming all the way from Jamaica to select for the night along side Marvin Chin, and, God Bless Sounds.

The $15 door cover will be donated to Roots 96.1 FM to keep the station up and running and also the proceeds generated from this go fund me page.

No contribution is too small lets work together to keep Roots 96.1 FM in operation and give their listeners a smooth listening experience.

 

https://www.gofundme.com/roots-961-fm-fundraiser


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Our Board

Beautiful Bold Women's Outreach Performance INC. is so pleased to announce our newest additions to our team. 

A strong and loving welcome to Natasha Von Castle, Natalie Brown Silvera, Elizabeth McDougall Williams and, Ann Marie Lewis.

We are looking forward to putting all of our expertise to work to fullfill our committment of having an impact on the young women in our community who face barriers and are in great need of empowerment because of their body image.

Our endeavor is not an easy one but working together with an inclusive approach will be our strongest tool in breaking down barriers for a target population that so often goes unrecognized.

For the rest of 2016 we will be working very hard to achieve our goals and brainstorm and work together to make a difference for the young women in our community who lack support especially as a plus sized young woman in today's society.

Thank you to each and every one of us who are dedicated to living up to our mission statement "Thriving To Empower & Embrace The Beauty Within".

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